Always a spectacle, it's a public show

11:02AM

BURNT UP AND GONE WITH THE SLIGHTEST HINT OF WIND


but my heart no longer hurts.

burn it down and build it again from the bricks that remain.

6:23PM

I know we've never met and you'll probably never read this.
There are certain things your voice does to me,
it makes me feel the ground and sky again.
How sad it is when you spill your guts on the paper.
It only neglects you and never relieves.

10:19PM

iaamaaing

3:08PM - Tonight we're gunna give it 35%

My heart is anywhere but here,
and how tired I was from the past couple of weeks,

From the past couple of years.
Well, it hit me all at once,
On a balcony overlooking nothing,
With snow falling all around,

I called you just to say, "Good-night".
And you hadn't done anything wrong,
Really, it's me not you.

I can't believe how naive I was to think things could ever be so simple,
And can you live with what you know about yourself,
When you're all alone, behind closed doors?
The things we never said, but we always knew were right there.

It's got me on my knees in a bathroom,
Praying to a God that I don't even believe in,

"Dear Jesus, are you listening?
If this is the one chance that really matters,
Don't let me fuck this up.
If you had told me about all this when I was fifteen,
I would've never believed it."